Hm. Finding a PCP who takes multiple carriers is a good idea. I wonder how I might go about finding that sort of information. Google might know. Google knows all, after all.

There's nothing stopping me from going in for a checkup right now except me. Our coverage right now is really good, I just haven't been able to make myself take advantage of it, yet, and now I'm dreading the thought that it will go away before I manage to. But good health benefits is no reason for DH to stay with a company that he is otherwise unhappy with. It's generally a good thing that he doesn't have the same craving for stability and security that I do, it keeps us balanced, I think. This is just one more thing that's out of my control. What I should do is not worry about that and just go see a freaking doctor already, how hard is that?

I have an OB/GYN that I've been to and like and I should at least go get a pap smear and whatnot, but I am reluctant to for a very stupid reason - she looked downright shocked when I told her my weight, and while I lost some last fall I had gained previously for no net change. It makes very little sense, but there it is. So, I'm just generally fed up with myself.