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multipurposegoddess) wrote2007-05-16 12:58 pm
multipurposegoddess) wrote2007-05-16 12:58 pm
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Benefits and Vices: Random Babbling
Got all thinky, typing it out to get it out of my head. Behind the cut to spare you my disjointed ramblings.
I think I'm going back on the Atkins Diet. I need to do something, and that has worked for me in the past with a lower level of stress than most diets I've tried. The main reason I haven't gone back to it in a while is that DH thinks it's unhealthy. And it kind of is, for him, since he doesn't actually follow the diet, he just eats whatever I make for dinner but goes on having whatever sugary things he wants while he's at work, so he ends up wioth more fat and protein in his diet from the Atkins but not cutting down on the carbs. He's gonna have to figure that out for himself, I'm afraid. It probably won't be worse than our current diet, which is heavy on the fast food and junk.
Anyway, this need I have to diet has gotten me thinking about food that is bad for you. I don't eat too much fat and sugar because I feel bad about myself or have a yawning hole of emotional problems I'm trying to fill with food; I eat too much fat and sugar because it tastes good and it's easy to get. And some self-soothing, in as much as eating comfort food really does make me feel better.
It's something I realized when I was a young woman dealing with self-esteem issues by sleeping around. One night stands work as an ego boost. They are, weirdly enough, an accomplishment, a success, and proof of attractiveness.
What's that saying about addiction and performing an action knowing you won't get the desired result? I'm probably garbling it. My point is, vices are so often portrayed as having no benefit, that people who indulge in whatever bad thing are just self-destructive. it seems likely to me that more often the known long-term injuries are just overshadowed by the real but short term benefits that the vice, whatever the flavor, really does provide.
The benefits I really wanted to talk about, however, are health benefits from DH's job. I haven't been to a doctor in a year and a half, and not to a non-OB/GYN for more like six or seven years. Some of that is just my general difficulty with making appointments, picking a PCP, and discussing all my concerns with a complete stranger. Some of it is the result of volatility in my health insurance. I had no coverage for years, and in the last year my coverage has changed three times. DH is talking to headhunters and making noises like he'd like t o change jobs again soon since the Motorola takeover, and that will mean yet another different health insurance for me to try to figure out.
I don't have any pressing and immediate problems, so my instinct is to wait until I have some stability and try to establish a relationship with a doctor that I can keep going to for a while, but it wears me down to keep putting it off.
I think I'm going back on the Atkins Diet. I need to do something, and that has worked for me in the past with a lower level of stress than most diets I've tried. The main reason I haven't gone back to it in a while is that DH thinks it's unhealthy. And it kind of is, for him, since he doesn't actually follow the diet, he just eats whatever I make for dinner but goes on having whatever sugary things he wants while he's at work, so he ends up wioth more fat and protein in his diet from the Atkins but not cutting down on the carbs. He's gonna have to figure that out for himself, I'm afraid. It probably won't be worse than our current diet, which is heavy on the fast food and junk.
Anyway, this need I have to diet has gotten me thinking about food that is bad for you. I don't eat too much fat and sugar because I feel bad about myself or have a yawning hole of emotional problems I'm trying to fill with food; I eat too much fat and sugar because it tastes good and it's easy to get. And some self-soothing, in as much as eating comfort food really does make me feel better.
It's something I realized when I was a young woman dealing with self-esteem issues by sleeping around. One night stands work as an ego boost. They are, weirdly enough, an accomplishment, a success, and proof of attractiveness.
What's that saying about addiction and performing an action knowing you won't get the desired result? I'm probably garbling it. My point is, vices are so often portrayed as having no benefit, that people who indulge in whatever bad thing are just self-destructive. it seems likely to me that more often the known long-term injuries are just overshadowed by the real but short term benefits that the vice, whatever the flavor, really does provide.
The benefits I really wanted to talk about, however, are health benefits from DH's job. I haven't been to a doctor in a year and a half, and not to a non-OB/GYN for more like six or seven years. Some of that is just my general difficulty with making appointments, picking a PCP, and discussing all my concerns with a complete stranger. Some of it is the result of volatility in my health insurance. I had no coverage for years, and in the last year my coverage has changed three times. DH is talking to headhunters and making noises like he'd like t o change jobs again soon since the Motorola takeover, and that will mean yet another different health insurance for me to try to figure out.
I don't have any pressing and immediate problems, so my instinct is to wait until I have some stability and try to establish a relationship with a doctor that I can keep going to for a while, but it wears me down to keep putting it off.
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Not allowed! We all have issues, subscriptions even, that slow us up. You'll get there when you're good and ready. Be kind to yourself, hon.
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