Another Filppin' Anniversary

So, the downside of having the Hebrew calendar floating around on the edges of my life, occasionally demanding my attention, is that I get two opportunities for painful anniversaries . Today is my wedding anniversary per the date on my ketubah. I didn't think it would be a big deal, it's not like we celebrated it ever, but it's actually hit me like a ton of bricks. I am going to be useless today.

At least it isn't also the anniversary of the funeral the way my "real" wedding anniversary is. Kind of nice to be able to separate some of those feelings from one another.

Yahrzeit is Wednesday, which I am braced for, and that should be it for calendar triggered sadness for a while.