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multipurposegoddessNot so traumatically this episode as the first one, but oh, the resonance! It's Nate's line after they return the chip, "Sometimes when you lose something [blah blah blah, I know there's no way I would be able to actually quote it accurately, there were kind of a lot of words]...you forget how to live." And he's talking moral compasses and whatnot, which I am not, particularly, but that is a phrase I use in my head all the time, especially when describing what takes up so much of my time and seems so much like doing nothing: thinking about how to live. I don't like to say it out loud because it sounds so pretentious and abstract and philosophical and the reality is not that at all, but I haven't found a better way to put it.
I have altogether too much freedom, is the thing. The other day, someone I know said something about running away to Fiji and I realized - I could easily do that. It would not be hard, at all. Of course, I have nothing in particular to run away from, either, so it's not so attractive an option. But there are so very many options and very little in the way of reasons to choose between them.
Which is to say, no conclusions reached. I have yet to define the problem, much less determine the solution. Perhaps there is no problem, and in that case I have no idea how to proceed.
I have altogether too much freedom, is the thing. The other day, someone I know said something about running away to Fiji and I realized - I could easily do that. It would not be hard, at all. Of course, I have nothing in particular to run away from, either, so it's not so attractive an option. But there are so very many options and very little in the way of reasons to choose between them.
Which is to say, no conclusions reached. I have yet to define the problem, much less determine the solution. Perhaps there is no problem, and in that case I have no idea how to proceed.