For In That Sleep

[multipurposegoddess]

 Today was one of those days when I go back to bed after letting the cats and dog out and have wacky dreams. I was in school again, majoring in Fire Baton Twirling, and H was with me. We were moving, as we often are in my dreams (I think that's more an anxiety thing than wish fulfillment), and at one point I was dreaming I was asleep in our new place (do other people dream about sleeping? I always figure it means I'm really tired), which was tiny and crammed with furniture including two beds. So I woke up in the dream, and look over and see another bed, but realize I'm in bed, so there's two, so is one mine and one Henry's? What? But then I rolled over and could feel him beside me, so that was all right.

You would think that actually waking up alone and remembering what reality I live in after that might be upsetting, but it really wasn't. Been in a good mood all day.

Comments

[fatoudust]

It's funny, I was actually thinking about you and your house. Maybe because of the bees conversation at the b.org? But I was wondering about asking you if you'd hit the point of reevaluating if you wanted to stay or move. Then I decided that it probably wasn't long enough yet to reevaluate.

Anyway, that's a nice dream, in the end. Oh, and yes, I dream I'm asleep. It makes for exciting Inception style assessments while I'm waking up, especially when I was in my try-to-lucid-dream phase.

[multipurposegoddess]

Well, it's pretty much constant reevaluation. There's reasons to stay and reasons to go, but as long as the house is worth less than I owe on the mortgage it seems futile to seriously consider selling. But someday that will change, presumably, and I'll need to actually decide. Meanwhile, I've got bees and a pond and fruit trees that need tending outside, and furniture that can always be rearranged inside, and that goes a long way.

The worst dreaming about sleeping is when I dream that I can't sleep and wake up all tired but also with that weird stiffness in the joints from actually sleeping really hard.

I should watch Inception.

[fatoudust]

Good. I'm glad about bees and ponds and fruit trees and furniture.

Oh, that's the worst! Of course, I sometimes do the opposite, too, and dream a full day's work. Then I wake up and have to go actually do the work and it's very dispiriting.

[multipurposegoddess]

Oh, yes! What I mostly do is dream that I am getting ready to face the day (especially if I have snoozed an alarm) - shower, breakfast, getting dressed, etc. - and then wake up and have to do it all "again". So frustrating.