Probably pointless worrying

For the first time in my adult life, I am financially comfortable. H is making enough money so we have some disposable income without me working (and oh, how I love not working!), we have the recommended 6-months of expenses in savings, everything's cool.

So, yesterday at dinner, H lets slip that he doesn't think his department is going to survive the merger. A veep in anotehr dept has said she would take him on if his position is eliminated, but, really, who knows what Motorola will go for. If they decide to go all lean and start handing out severance packages, that'll be that.

This isn't even real worry, not up to my usual standard of I'd better find a nice sturdy cardboard box worry - we do have savings and I assume that severence caused by merger would be generous, and there would likely be unemployment and the whole thing may not happen at all. But I am really good at worrying. Give me an actual crisis and I'm all calm and zen and unruffled - make everything smooth and easy and I will worry like a champ. So it's realy a symptom of how good I have it, if I think about it.

There, got that out of my system.

Birthdays, and How I am not High-minded

My birthday was on Sunday. H and I were traveling, burning up the frequent flyer miles, and it was a lovely vacation day, but it didn't feel like a birthday. I don't generally make a big deal out of my birthday as far as having a party, but I do like to feel like the day is All About Me, however I can do that. Getting phone calls from my family, birthday wishes from the invisible people in the computer (I really missed that, not having an internet connection!), being able to have cake for breakfast if I want to, those are what make a birthday for me.

I had my mail held while we were gone, and it all got delivered today, including3 packages and a notice for another package to be picked up from the post office. It's kind of sad, but getting stuff that people had picked out for me made me finally feel like I'd made it through another year. Sweet materialism comes through for me.I honestly wouldn't have guessed.