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One Thing Out of My Hands
Oct. 20th, 2010 11:46 amGot the latest affidavit for Prudential notarized and faxed off with attendant paperwork. So that's not on my plate any more.
In general, I am having a hard time because I am doing better. You know how after your foot goes to sleep, when the blood starts flowing again it's just excruciating for a little while? I think it's like that. I'm a lot more functional than I've been, but I can also see how far I fall short of actual competence. And I am starting to want things again, in a vague daydreamy way, like, wouldn't it be something to see the Parthenon. I didn't have that at all for a while and that was weird. So that's good, but every one of those is immediately followed by the inevitable thought that whatever it is, I could do it but I can't share it with Henry, so would I still want to? It takes the wind out of my sails something fierce. But at least there is wind to be taken, I guess.
And, my God, I am just so tired al the time. I slept in until after 9 this morning and I could sleep more right now, no problem. I still need to go get my chickens and eggs at 5, and I'm seeing a production of Sleuth with my folks this evening, so I can't completely withdraw, but perhaps a nap would be in order.
In general, I am having a hard time because I am doing better. You know how after your foot goes to sleep, when the blood starts flowing again it's just excruciating for a little while? I think it's like that. I'm a lot more functional than I've been, but I can also see how far I fall short of actual competence. And I am starting to want things again, in a vague daydreamy way, like, wouldn't it be something to see the Parthenon. I didn't have that at all for a while and that was weird. So that's good, but every one of those is immediately followed by the inevitable thought that whatever it is, I could do it but I can't share it with Henry, so would I still want to? It takes the wind out of my sails something fierce. But at least there is wind to be taken, I guess.
And, my God, I am just so tired al the time. I slept in until after 9 this morning and I could sleep more right now, no problem. I still need to go get my chickens and eggs at 5, and I'm seeing a production of Sleuth with my folks this evening, so I can't completely withdraw, but perhaps a nap would be in order.