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Further Reflection
Jun. 26th, 2012 02:08 pmNot "upon further reflection" because said reflection is ongoing. Hey, why leave it implied when I can spell it out?
( This digression got longer than expected... )
Anyway, why did I think I needed to make that aside? I'm not sure now. But the main point I wanted to make was in regard to RV shopping - I've looked at craigslist and confirmed that there are a LOT of cheapish RVs for sale and I don't have to jump on this particular one right now, and I think the sane thing to do is to find a job, see what I can do about making my income and mortgage coexist peacefully with refinancing or something (if necessary, I suppose it's possible I will make enough money to just keep paying the note, but I have never made that much money before so it feels pretty impossible) and THEN go shopping for Back Up Plan Hit the Road (hopefully while I still have enough savings to make that easy).
So. Plan.
You may have noticed that the first step was "get a job" which is something I should have been working on all this month but haven't. At all. Partially because I don't want to de-purple my hair, it's very pretty right now, even with the roots showing. I thought it would fade more, but this dye is really as good as Candace said it would be. But mostly because OMG I hate looking for work so much more than actually working. I have kept many a crappy job for way too long because that whole selling yourself to employers thing is such a drag. Ugh. And right now I feel like I could keep up with some sort of job if I could do it while keeping my head down, but no way could I cope with interviewing and all that.
So I am confessing that here in the hopes that admitting it will help me just get over it already so I can at least work on my resumé. I can do that without taking a shower or anything, so, come on self, get with the program. Worry about what you will do with the resumé after it's all put together and shiny. You can revise, it's allowed.
And you have coffee, now, so - no excuses.
( This digression got longer than expected... )
Anyway, why did I think I needed to make that aside? I'm not sure now. But the main point I wanted to make was in regard to RV shopping - I've looked at craigslist and confirmed that there are a LOT of cheapish RVs for sale and I don't have to jump on this particular one right now, and I think the sane thing to do is to find a job, see what I can do about making my income and mortgage coexist peacefully with refinancing or something (if necessary, I suppose it's possible I will make enough money to just keep paying the note, but I have never made that much money before so it feels pretty impossible) and THEN go shopping for Back Up Plan Hit the Road (hopefully while I still have enough savings to make that easy).
So. Plan.
You may have noticed that the first step was "get a job" which is something I should have been working on all this month but haven't. At all. Partially because I don't want to de-purple my hair, it's very pretty right now, even with the roots showing. I thought it would fade more, but this dye is really as good as Candace said it would be. But mostly because OMG I hate looking for work so much more than actually working. I have kept many a crappy job for way too long because that whole selling yourself to employers thing is such a drag. Ugh. And right now I feel like I could keep up with some sort of job if I could do it while keeping my head down, but no way could I cope with interviewing and all that.
So I am confessing that here in the hopes that admitting it will help me just get over it already so I can at least work on my resumé. I can do that without taking a shower or anything, so, come on self, get with the program. Worry about what you will do with the resumé after it's all put together and shiny. You can revise, it's allowed.
And you have coffee, now, so - no excuses.