O Brave New World That Has Such Groceries In It

[multipurposegoddess]

My huge assortment of Atkins shakes came today. I now have 56 meals-in-cartons (actually, now 55, I just had one for lunch) which should ease my whole what am I going to eat anxiety. I was regretfully poking around the kitchen, unable to come up with anything I could fix for lunch that I wouldn't spill all over myself (I'm going out in the world in a bit, I'd rather not have, say, soy sauce all down the front of me) when they arrived.

I ordered them from Amazon, because I get self-concious buying a bunch of diet stuff at the local grocery store where the cashiers are so friendly and chatty and might decide to comment. Anonymity, it's not just for porn.

I'm not particularly dieting, but the Atkins shakes are not full of corn syrup/starch, and they're reasonably nutritious as a meal replacement, not to mention pretty cheap as compared to an actual meal. Also, no dishes to wash, which is awfully nice. I am very close to having my kitchen really truly completely clean, it's taken me far longer than any reasonable person would estimate, and not adding more dishes that need washing is really going to help my mental state. I'm planning to eat real food, also, but it's a relief to have something on hand that I can just go ahead and consume when nothing sounds good and cooking seems overwhelming but I'm about to chew my own arm off if I don't eat something soon. Me being me, I have an elaborate schedule for when I will cook what meals and also eat in restaurants, sometimes, and who knows, maybe I will even follow it. 

Comments

[arliss]

My entire life, including childhood, since I was "big for my age", has been spent on one diet or another. In my teens and twenties, avoidance seemed much the best plan, so I practiced it as much as I could, considering I had two children who needed more or less regular meals to thrive. Once they were self-sufficient, so long as ingredients were provided, I returned to my starve-and-binge ways, which inevitably eventually played merry hell with my blood sugar. The diabetes was just the latest thing to force my focus on food.

Honestly? While I do react positively to pleasant tastes and textures, the *thinking about it*, shopping, plannng, preparing, etc., is at constant war with my learned avoidance of food. I said long ago, just give me a pill or a smoothie--even an evil-tasting one, as long as it's just once a day--put it in my hand and let me chug it and *not have to think about it*, and I'll be happy.

I know it's a problem, and I work on it constantly, and I also know it won't ever be completely resolved.

But your shakes sound kind of like Nirvana to me.

[multipurposegoddess]

It's such a relief. I have such decision-making paralysis lately, anything I can do to not have to decide things all the time is good.

And since it's for no reason other than my convenience, when I inevitably get sick of them or just decide to do something different, no guilt. Which also feels pretty good.

[multipurposegoddess]

it was actually wishing for food pills a la the Jetsons that led me to consider the shake option.